i hate my FIL101 prof.

aaah! i miss flailing and dying! ~wtffff!!!!!!!!!??????????
all the requirements are stealing my time. i got ZERO left for fangirling which sucks bigtime!

demo, i like the fact that my anatomy prof thinks my JE boys are hot! and she says i can draw them more often. *shoot!i have to draw them nakey!* … *tries to die.*

SUNDAY!
three fangirls would be flailing and dying from morning til dawn.
We shall create our Yaoi Heaven. x]]]]

jyaa ne!

*the title’s stupid.*

I WANT TO FOCUS ON REALITY!

…even though I’m sick of getting hurt.

I’M FEELING VERY STUPID.
And other feelings.
~ sad.
~ FGHSKALKSD annoyed.
~ emo-ish.
~ Japanese.
~ sick of living.
~ tired listening.
~ done loving. Or not.
~ not sure.
~ want to forget everything about fangirling.
~ then again, I still want to go to Japan.
~ still want to meet Ninomiya Kazunari
~ still willing to unzip Jun Matsumoto’s trousers.
~ wanna go to school but I don’t want to.
~ want to get sick and die.
~ but that should happen after I’ve gone to Japan.
~ wanna be born in another country.
~ be straight.
~ be normal.
~ sing english songs.
~ learn Spanish,Italian and French.
~ stop missing people.
~ jump! to everywhere!!!!!!
~ remember the good and the good after every bad whatever.

Stop feeling even for 10 seconds.

DO YOU KNOW HOW ANNOYING IT IS TO NOT KNOW YOURSELF JUST AFTER ONE FRIGGIN’ SUMMER?

Jun + SPIDERMAN = death for the Nth time!

got this from juntoshi.wordpress.com!
weee! here’s the fabulous link to the wonderful AU CM of Matsujun.
http://www.kddi.com/ad/index.html

jyaa!

its a week before school starts…

its summer, and i didnt have enough time to watch Arashi’s tv shows plus the internet’s major bogus! i’m too lazy to repost my past posts from multiply to this blog.
im dying
im bored
i feel like im drying under the hot summer sun
i painted my nails [which rarely happens!!!]
i plan on starving myself this coming schoolyear to buy upcoming arashi stuffs and to make my dream, “going on a diet” a reality!!!
and im starting to think why i made this blog… i mean, i wouldnt have time to update it in the first place. im entering college in less than a week, everything will pile up! there would be more requirements than time! aaaaaah!!!! im in deep shit. why did i ever choose fine arts?! i wont be able to watch my JE boys anymore.

~just now, im wondering why im ranting in this blog.
HELP!
oh, and if ever any filipino reads this blog and youre studying or gonna be studying in the University of Santo Tomas, tell me! i need another fangirl to be with, NEED!

I WISH SCHOOL WAS LIKE GOKUSEN.

i missed MUSIC STATION SUPERLIVE

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

I MISSED MUSIC STATION SUPERLIVE 2008 PART2!!!!!!!!!!

I’m going really crazy right now…

WHAT IF UTADA HIKARU PERFORMED IN THAT PART??!!

OR.. OR… OR….

WHAT IF ARASHI….WHAT IF ARASHI PERFORMED IN THAT PART?!?!?!!!

AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!11

THIS SUCKS BIG TIME…

I’m still looking for the videos over the internet…

 

NOTE TO SELF:

Do NOT EVER leave home if your watching out for an Arashi TV appearance!!!

 

Next Friday is part3.

Animax at exactly 7:00pm!

*keeps a positive thought from now on, Arashi will BE performing next week coz it’s the last part, and I say they always SAVE THE BEST FOR LAST. Right?*

 

OH! AND I FOUND THIS ON CRUNCHYROLL!

Arashi on Music Station[2007-08-31] -woah, that’s so last year. 

Please watch it and OBSERVE OHMIYA, and OhMiya’s reaction when Arashi talks about them on tv… god[?] they are sooooo kawaii! ♥♥♥ oh! and they performed Happiness, too!

modern minds and passtimes

im an inturn in graphic designing. and when my job’s done, i do extra stuff for my portfolio.

i use photoshop cs. the pictures are from… well, i already forgot where i got them, i only found them in the deepest parts of my computer’s drive. haha!

anyway, some of those are these…

JUN MATSUMOTO:
-jun1
-jun2
-jun3
-jun4
-jun5

IKUTA TOMA:
-toma1
-toma2
-toma3
-toma4

NINOMIYA KAZUNARI:
-nino1
-nino2
-nino3
-nino4
-nino5 ~this is major kawaii! :))

i honor your opinions…so please, do criticize these. thanks!

killing time with Arashi

[repost from my multiply] NOTE: i was still obsessing with Jun when i answered this.

many girls with great fandom of Arashi have answered this and have tried to have these characteristics ever since the article interview came out years ago. and im gonna be one of them, now. HAHA! and i’ll mark the ones [i think] i possess? bear with me, im bored.

Matsumoto Jun’s ideal wife: 

[?] The feeling of being with you is good. [friends tell me so.. but thats because were friends. i hope you get that. haha]
[x] Able to properly see people’s actions.
[ ] Rich expression of sensitivity.
[ ] Your five senses are sharp. [i have no more senses. kidding.]
[ ] Like cooking. [i suck at cooking X(((]
[x] Living with you is good. [its gonna be wild and uber weird. for me, that's good.]
[x] Can be thrifty. [flee markets??!]
[ ] Diligent personality.
[x] You like yourself. [no one else would if you dont, right?]
[x] You have hobbies. [many! like staring into space. haha! no, seriously, i have lots of things to do which are absolutely NOT IMPORTANT.]
[x] You like the arts. [very much!]
[x] You read books. [comics count, right?]
[x] You like kids.
[ ] Quick-witted.
[x] Active. [my friends say im hyperactive. does that count?]
[x] Vibrant curiosity. [i am curious!! very, very, very curious. hahahahaha!]
[x] There are bad parts of your personality. [yes, like laziness.]
[ ] Pretty without make-up. [i hate make-up.]
[x] You like spontaneity. [yea, thats why i like jack sparrow.]
[x] Strong immunity due to good health.

i got 14 out of 20 in Jun’s List. ooh.. that wont do. *flails and dies of disappointment*

and the others’ lists..

Nino-chan..

[x] You are a girl. [ I AM. ]
[x] You’re older than 16.
[?] You can speak Japanese. [i know some words?! :|]
[x] You have a job. [i do! i work for my dad!]
[x] You won’t say things like [Are you working?] [thats so random, why would you ask that?]
[ ] You won’t complain if I open the house up.
[x] You’re able to live together in the heart of the city. [with Jun, Ohno or Nino..maybe i can.]
[ ] You won’t coerce me into having a multi-generation household. [i hate extended family households.]
[ ] Great generosity.
[x] You’ll let me play my games. [if you let me play too!!!]
[ ] You hate travelling.
[x] You have hobbies and special skills. [i have hobbies!! ...and weird skills?]
[x] You aren’t too shy. [not anymore, im in collegebeing shy wouldnt take me anywhere.]
[x] You won’t grasp my schedule. (Like, memorize or manage it?) [wtf!]
[x] You’ll understand my laughing points. [i understand that you like ...xD] 
[x] You don’t have too many friends. [im not that friendly.]
[ ] You don’t have dresses. [i have dresses! haha!]
[ ] You have ‘lucky underwear’. [YOU ARE WEIRD, NINOMIYA KAZUNARI! edit: but i love you!]
[x] You could fall in love with me. [COULD. edit: I AM NOW!]
[x] You like me. [yes, i like you when you play your DS and boxing on your wii! edit: I SAID, IM IN LOVE WITH YOU!]

got 13-14/20 on nino’s list. better than Jun’s.haha! edit: HAHA! YEHESSS!!!!

Ohno Satoshi!

[ ] Our conversations match.
[x] Our hobbies match. [yea, like straing blankly into space?!edit: and painting, i have to.]
[ ] You can cook.
[ ] You’re kind.
[x] You’re not fussy about food.
[ ] Your walking speed is the same as mine.
[ ] Our values match.
[x] You can drink sake. [dad, took me somewhere to drink sake, and now im still drunk.xD]
[x] You have some slightly silly parts. [some slightly? im a whole lot of mess.]
[ ] You have the same laughing points as me.
[x] You can be free in your expression. [sure.]
[ ] You won’t be concerned with clothing. [i love clothing and my mom points out every wrong thing about my clothes, how can i not be concerned.]
[ ] You can fish. [Weird.]
[ ] You can judge the fish you’ve caught. [i only eat fish, not catch them. can i judge them when their cooked?]
[x] You’re not too detailed about money.
[x] You like surreal art. [i LOVE surreal art.]
[x] You have dreams. [OFCOURSE!]
[ ] You’re harmonious. [lalala...]
[x] You have feelings of being thankful. [ne!]
[ ] You can get along with my parents. [wth!]

and got only 9 on ohno’s. :( i believe Ohno has out-weirded me.

hahaha!

bittersweet beginnings

[repost from my multiply] NOTE: this was posted when i was still obsessing with Jun Matsumoto 

this is what i did to my phone when i found scrapbooking stuff scattered at home. haha!

“teenage girl” to “obsessed fangirl”

it all happened in a span of 10 hours.

i was bored, got nothing to do, decided to watch Hana Yori Dango on DVD. yes, on DVD. we can buy those here– 2 seasons in 1! i was totally flailing over Domyoji’s lips and a bit disgusted of his hairstyle! as soon as i found his name as the credits rolled, i rushed to the computer and filled up my memory with Jun Matsumoto! I forgot that the dvd was still playing and got scolded by my parents.

about a year and a half ago, I DENIED THE FACT THAT I WAS GETTING OBSESSED OVER SOME JAPANESE IDOL until classes started, i found out i wasnt the only one who found Jun Matsumoto HOT and SEXY. *YES! im not alone!* so i continued flailing… and dying… and looked for more Jun Matsumoto over the internet!! so my friend… i call her Momo now. Momo gave me a list of Jun’s doramas– like Gokusen, Kimi wa Petto, Kindaichi Shonen no Jikenbo, Bambino, lalala.. and i conquered them one by one. I WATCHED AS SOON AS I ARRIVE HOME. that’s all i did. i no longer study, i dont do homework at home, i flunked algebra and economics– basically my world revolved around him, then around Arashi, then JE’s other stars like Akanishi Jin, Kamenashi Kazuya, Ikuta Toma, etc. haha!

i’ve suffered obsessions with:

~Jun Matsumoto
~Ikuta Toma
~Kazuya Kamenashi

and now, its NINOMIYA KAZUNARI’s turn.

 

being addicted to Japanese Idols is not easy to get over with, i tell you. YOU’LL ALWAYS WANT MORE OF THEM AND YOU’LL NEVER GET TIRED EVEN IF YOU TURN OUT TO HAVE YOUR OWN WORLD.

yes, i think that, but i dont care! IM HAPPY FLAILING AND DYING over my boys. HAHA!